“Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all.”
― Emily Dickinson
“Fairy tales do not tell children the dragons exist. Children already know that dragons exist. Fairy tales tell children the dragons can be killed.”
― G.K. Chesterton
I have been taking part in an Online Bible Study and am loving it. One of my biggest regrets of being a WAWM (wicked awesome working mom) is that I don’t have the opportunity to participate in Bible Studies.
I freaking love the internet.
Oh, you want to go to college but don’t actually want to GO to college? Go to college online!
You want to participate in Bible Studies, but can’t actually GET there? Go to Bible Study online!
The topic of this Bible study is centered around the book of Ruth. It is a practical approach to not quitting things.
Honestly, I’ve struggled a bit with having anything to apply this whole concept to as (and I hate to toot my own horn here) but I really don’t actually every quit things. I kill myself mentally, emotionally, and what often feels like physically…but I never, ever, ever quit. I mean really, that’s what being a WAWM is all about. Doing things and doing lots of things, and never giving up.
But as God always does I have been shown that there is an area of my life that I have quit…
I know, shocker. I was shocked myself when I realized it.
You see, I am this kind of person: “Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed.” ― Alexander Pope
And I have given up on hope.
Who really knows how it happened. As it does, life likely whittled and chipped away at the walls surrounding my soul until slowly but surely the hope that once lived there began to slip away. Until one day I just quit having hope.
They (and don’t ask me who exactly because I really don’t know) say that the first step to fixing your problem is admitting it.
Well, here I am admitting it. I have quit hope. Which is really quite shocking because I truly love inspirational and motivational things. Maybe in an effort to jump-start my own dying soul…
It’s funny how you don’t always see the truth about yourself. There I was in the middle of a Bible study about quitting things and being all “I’m-so-awesome-I-never-quit-things” driving to work and I hear the words of the song by Danny Gokey:
There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I might be down but I’m not dead
There’s better days still up ahead
Even after all I’ve seen, there’s hope in front of me
And I realized all at once that I don’t have hope in front of me.
I don’t have hope at all.
I like to talk about hope, but I don’t actually have any.
I just take life and all that happens and goes on and try to deal with it. I just move along through life doubting anything and everything.
And the only place that has gotten me is into a depressed and negative place…like a dark, dark forest that you can feel closing in on all sides. And you can’t get out. At first, you want to. But then you sort of just get used to the forest. You tell yourself it’s not so bad. This is just what life is like. It just…it just is.
But it doesn’t have to be.
A quick search for the keyword ‘hope’ in the Bible revealed 151 results.
Well, guess I’m not the only one who has quit this thing!
The way I see it, hope is rather like love. It’s not actually something that we feel. Like love, it is a choice. It is something that we do, and seek, and look for, and purposefully put into our hearts and souls.
And when we find ourselves in the heart of that oppressive forest we don’t give up. We look for hope. We look to Him to give us that hope. And we carry on victoriously in life with His hope in our hearts.
Because life doesn’t have to just be.
Hope gives us victory in life.
Since the first step to fixing a problem is admitting you have one, I think I’m on the right track to not quitting hope.
I will hope that these college degrees are the tool He has equiped me with to make a difference…
There is hope in your future, says the Lord… Jeremiah 31:17 a
I will hope that things will be fine financially, and not allow financial worries to consume me…
This I recall to my mind,
Therefore I have hope.
Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed,
Because His compassions fail not. Lamentations 3:21-22
That they may set their hope in God,
And not forget the works of God,
But keep His commandments. Psalm 76:7
I will hold on to hope and will not fear my future…
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart,
All you who hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24
I will not let depression and anxiety fill my soul…
Why are you cast down, O my soul?
And why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him
For the help of His countenance. Psalm 42:5
When I’m tempted to lose hope, I’ll turn to Hos word…
You are my hiding place and my shield; I hope in Your word. Psalm 119:114
When I want to worry and stress about my job, my kids, my life, my finances, anything and everything…I’ll let His promises comfort my heart…
Now may our Lord Jesus Christ Himself, and our God and Father, who has loved us and given us everlasting consolation and good hope by grace, comfort your hearts and establish you in every good word and work. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I won’t let go of hope, instead, I’ll hold on to it…
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.Hebrews 10:23
And so my sweet Ellie and my passionate Kreade…
Find your hope. Find it in Him and hold fast to it. Don’t let your souls wander into that dark forest. Be hopeful. Remember that every detail of your future rests in His all knowing and perfect plan. And never lose hope. I pray that He fills you with so much hope in the midst of so much doubt that people cannot help but notice. And when they ask you why you dare to hope…tell them. Tell them why. Tell them where. And tell them Who. May the hope that He gives you be the reason that despairing souls find their way out of the darkness and into the light…
But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear. 1 Peter 3:15