Fear does not have to make you cruel or cowardly, fear can make you kind. -Doctor Who
“To fear is to have more faith in your antagonist than in Christ.”
― D.L. Moody,
Lately, I feel that my dreams have finally come true. And in a way of sorts, they have. Here I live, in my comfortable heated home, in a beautiful part of the countryside, with the ability to sit by my fire and smoke my pipe, and if it weren’t for the fact that I lack hair growing between the toes of my nonexistent tough-skinned feet, my life could nearly pass for the complacent, comfortable, unadventurous life of a Hobbit.
Middle Earth at last.
“I am looking for someone to share in an adventure that I am arranging, and it’s very difficult to find anyone.’
I should think so — in these parts! We are plain quiet folk and have no use for adventures. Nasty disturbing uncomfortable things! Make you late for dinner!”
I am afraid that that basically sums up so many of us out there. So many of us Christians. Paralyzed by fear. Swallowed up with doubt. Empty as a clanging-gong or cymbal. Wholly without love or care. Or eyes that see and feel.
We are so privileged to live without fear of death or rape or hunger or pain. But of course, many will argue that we have many things to fear. And yes, we do. There is always the possibility of a horrible car crash, that vaccines will kill us, that non-organic food will cause our sudden demise. But really. We are so privileged, to be burdened by fear that in the perspective of the larger world, seem so trivial and mundane.
People are dying out there. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again.
And no one seems to care.
I literally don’t get it.
How have our Western Christian hearts become so callous? Truly it blows my mind.
We have forgotten to feel. We have allowed our hearts to become stone, and fallen prey to the Devil’s lie that it could never happen to us…and that it shouldn’t.
As if we are simply too good to ever experience the horror of what so many others live day in and day out.
I get it. We have issues of our own. We have homeless people, and veterans who probably deserve more. Our education system is hugely flawed. Our politicians largely selfish. Our food system may or may not be healthy. The Mexicans keep crossing the border. We have too many taxes, not enough money, we work too much, sleep too little, we never have enough time. We have problems of our own.
We are Hobbits.
Plain folk, who have no use for adventures. Who care not one bit for those who live elsewhere. With our heads in the sand, and our hearts guarded by stone. We care not and do nothing.
But still, we fear.
It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.
And the ache in my heart has been fully reawakened by the recent issue surrounding refugees from Syria that has become such a hot topic lately.
My first reaction to my fellow Christians is completely less than wholesome – they’re f***ing refugees for Gods sake!
Refugee noun someone who has been forced to leave a country because of war or for religious or political reasons; : one that flees; especially : a person who flees to a foreign country or power to escape danger or persecution
And I don’t care if our of the 1000 of them are hurting women and children and one belongs to that infamous terrorist group who I won’t give the satisfaction of naming.
We can’t just ignore what is happening in the rest of the world.
With every chance we have to help, and every choice we make to do nothing, we only allow our hearts to be overtaken by stone.
In this highly political issue, I don’t pretend to know what the answer is. I am not saying that we allow them into our homes. Although I am not saying that we should not.
I only urge my fellow Christians to look at these people as Jesus would. To see the hurt and the pain, to acknowledge the sin and the shame, but ultimately to love and treat with care and respect.
Whatever that means for us.
“Bilbo saw that the moment had come when he must do something.”
I urge you to prayerfully consider what it is that God would have us to do. Because I cannot believe for one second that He simply wants us to turn our eyes, blind to the reality that could have been ours.
For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’
The fact is staring us in the face. And something has to be done.
And in my heart, I feel that the end is nearing.
As a child, the thought of the world ending or the though of dying was just too much for me. I have lived under the oppression of anxiety of these things for so long.
But it is amazing how God gives you what you need.
In one of my psychology classes I learned that normal development prepares you for death. And that the majority of people are truly ready to die when the time comes. I was very comforted by this. Death has scared me since I was young. And it is comforting to know that God has designed us to die, and die well.
I never thought that at 27 I would be alright with the thought that the end times are more than likely here.
A year or so ago, my pastor showed a video of a woman and her family who were being persecuted in some country somewhere. The family had the chance to leave the country, but chose to stay and share His love with whoever they could. The video told of the woman giving her life, literally, to the hands of the Lord. Then her husband, then her children. Through prayer, they committed themselves. And decided that if they were to die, their last words would speak of forgiveness to their killers.
I really struggled with this.
I made myself imagine being in this situation.
And it was hell.
But it is amazing how God’s word speaks.
So that we may boldly say, The Lord [is] my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me. ~ Hebrews 13:6
This is the meaning of Azrielle’s name. Her name literally means the Lord is my helper. And this is her verse.
I always wanted my children to have names full of meaning…and sometimes I wonder if there is so much more awaiting them because of it.
And now I have peace. Because this woman- I wish I knew her name, and the rest of her story – has helped me to know with every part of my heart that no matter what is going on around me, no matter how He chooses to use my life and the life of those I love, He will be enough. He will give me what I need.
And I refuse to live in fear.
And I will see people.
And I will do whatever it takes to allow my life to be the difference, to exude the love, and tell the story that gives Life to all.
Whatever it takes.
And so Kreade and Ellie…
“Things are drawing towards the end now, unless I am mistaken. There is an unpleasant time just in front of you; but keep your heart up!”
In this world full of so many things – decisions and choices, hatred and persecution, right and wrong and everything in between…never loose heart.
Because if it is the end, we have a job to do.
We must be the faithful church. The ones who persevere. The ones who overcome. The ones who keep His word.
We must be great and do great as we allow ourselves to be filled with His love.
And never loose heart.
“Where there’s life there’s hope.”
Do not allow your hearts to become stone. Even if we are called to lay down our lives for the brethren.
“May the wind under your wings bear you where the sun sails and the moon walks.”
And when that day comes, I will see you when all things are made new.
“But whoever has the world’s goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in him?” John 3:17